|2012: The Year of the Mayan Buzzkill|
First thing I'd do? Quit my day job, no question. (No offense Day Job). I'd then book a vacation for my family to Paris, where we'd gorge on croissants, chocolates and wine (and cheese and bread and...). Cholesterol be damned. Then maybe off to somewhere warm and impractical, like Fiji. I'd read lots of books and spend time with the people I love rather than spending time on the various obligations that comprise my day. You know what else I'd do if the end was near? I'd stop worrying about things like deadlines and writing schedules. I'd stop living life from one task to the next and I'd start living for the moment. In short, I'd rediscover my passion.
I started thinking about this because some recent health issues have knocked me off my writing schedule. I am behind on my book, which is No Big Deal in the legal sense since I'm not under contract, but it's a Big Frigging Deal to Type-A me. I can't do much about it, but it still knots me up. Thinking about the end of the world makes me see how my perspective has gone askew. In the name of being disciplined, I've lost track of some of the passion that got me writing in the first place. If I'm wracked with guilt because I'm a couple weeks off my intended writing goal due to a legitimate setback, I'm doing something wrong. Guilt in small doses is okay, but I should mostly write because I want to write.
I don't actually think the world will end on December 21, but since we never know how much time we have left, I'm going to make an effort to ditch some of the self-imposed drudgery. Maybe I can't quit my day job just yet, and maybe Fiji is out for a while still, but I can examine why writing has been feeling more like an obligation than a joy, and I can fix that. Maybe it's time to reduce my daily word count for a spell, or to take a few days to curl up with a great book that will inspire me to put my own words on paper. It's only November, but it's never too early for a resolution.
So how about you? If the end was near, what would you do?